It's a boy!

I know it was Mama Rachel’s yahrtzeit just a week ago, but today I want to shine a light on her oft-forgotten sister.

Leah.

I felt her so much this year.

Especially when I found out I was having my fourth boy.

Here I started Reclaim Womanhood, I take so much joy in witnessing Embodied moms transmit a wholesome, reverent experience of womanhood to their daughters – and I'm also a full blown boy mom. G-d has an awesome sense of humor. Bh I'm feeling very blessed. I gave birth to our beautiful healthy baby boy earlier this month.

There’s so much I’ve been itching to share throughout these nine months.

This creative power within our cycles literally embodied in new life.

Birth always initiated me into deeper embodiment before I even knew what that meant.

There’s a veil you pass through.

A portal you enter.

You’re not just birthing a child, you’re birthing yourself anew.

But I wasn’t prepared for what tracking my cycles – and living consciously through them – would bring to the births that followed. (My last 2 births were a completely different experience than the ones that came before. Let me know if you’d want me to share more about that.)

There’s nothing like consciously conceiving, receiving, and welcoming a soul into this realm.

What a gift to be the channel where new life begins.

When we learn about tracking our cycles in Embodied*, it’s not about controlling or making your cycles behave a certain way.

It’s a practice of awe. Of wonderment. Of witnessing creation in motion.

Actual Divine energy coursing through our blood.

Imagine knowing what’s happening in your body not so much to “take charge of your fertility” but to connect to this awesome power moving through you.

The wisdom of cycles and the wisdom of birth are one. 

It’s the wisdom of the Feminine.

The wisdom of creation. 

When Leah birthed her fourth son she said “'הפעם אודה את ה” - this time I will praise G-d.

With her first three sons, she still pined, beseeched and tried to fix her life**. With her fourth birth, she fully leaned into the abundance she recognized within her and around her. She no longer needed to be saved. She was the embodied Mother – resourced, receiving, channeling the Divine. 

Gratitude is the felt sense of being able to receive and fully be with the abundance of life itself.

It’s a feminine quality, nurtured through the art of cyclical embodiment. To be grounded and held within as life’s ups and downs continue to circle around you. 

That’s the predominant feeling this time around.

Postpartum is a wild ride.

Some days I’m crying in frustration that the baby won’t latch.

Some days I wish I had a lot more support.

Most days I’m in awe of this new life, not just in the form of my baby but in this new woman I’ve become. Resourced from within and Above.

Riding the waves, feeling all of it, while rooted in this embodied experience of womanhood. It’s a gift – with challenges and choices and real internalized receiving – and I don’t take any of it for granted.  

I’ll leave it here for now.

There’s so much more to say. So much coming through this powerful portal of birth and postpartum.

Many of you have been asking about cyclical living through pregnancy and postpartum and I can’t wait to share more about how I’m living this in real time!

This email is the beginning of so much goodness coming. With this birthing energy, there’s a lot more being born.

Until next time!

*Embodied is my signature course offering where you learn to read your cycle with real clarity and come home to the creative, vibrant power moving through you every single month. If you've felt a pull toward living this way, hold onto it. I'll be sharing more very soon.

**Leah's first 3 sons were named in her pain of yearning to be seen, heard, and fully partnered in heart and soul with her husband, Yaakov (whose heart lay primarily with his beloved Rachel.) Yehuda was the first son named for something bigger she was stepping into – gratitude and receiving directly from the Divine – rather than something she lacked.